Thoughts & Drabbles

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    Which frog are you?

    “The Two Frogs” from Aesop’s Fables: Two Frogs were neighbors. One inhabited a deep pond, far removed from public view; the other lived in a gully containing little water, and traversed by a country road. The Frog that lived in the pond warned his friend to change his residence and entreated him to come and live with him, saying that he would enjoy greater safety from danger and more abundant food. The other refused, saying that he felt it so very hard to leave a place to which he had become accustomed. A few days afterwards a heavy wagon passed through the gully and crushed him to death under its…

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    Above Ground

    Living as a visible minority in another country has taught me a lot about race, colonization, and globalization. Something else it’s shown me is the delicate underground web we may take for granted in the suburbs. Everything here is closer to the visible surface— income inequality, pollution, garbage, consumerism, animal cruelty, effects of war. Sometimes I pass someone old enough to be my grandmother carting a rickshaw full of cardboard. Social security was only recently established and elder poverty is a huge problem. I see grannies selling gum for a dollar outside department stores selling $500 padded jackets. Sometimes I see elderly without limbs, or I see a set of…

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    “You speak Korean so well!”

    I stumbled upon the famous Talk To Me In Korean channel many years ago but just found this video today and genuinely laughed out loud. Three Korean teachers reviewed Korean-learning memes and this was the meme in question that struck me as a particular, lived experience: To explain: A intruder, labeled as non-Korean, is looking for a Korean stranger. In order to find the person in hiding, the intruder calls out “hello?” in Korean and the Korean says, “You speak Korean really well!” and we assume, meets an untimely demise. It’s analogous to the “shave and a haircut, two bits” scene from Who Framed Roger Rabbit. It simply can’t be…

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    Aging

    South Korea went from being one of the poorest countries on Earth to the world’s tenth largest economy in less than 70 years. Korea has almost all the luxuries of American life, plus benefits my home country lacks: universal healthcare, cute school supplies, and extensive food delivery that UberEats only dreams of being. But seventy years is not a long time and even through through the Miracle on the Han River, age cannot be hidden. American culture seems almost ashamed of the elderly– put them in nursing homes until they are forgotten. I never really saw age until I got to Korea. In spite of the massive economic growth, sparkling…

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    Touch

    On a long bus ride home, several people avoided sitting in the empty seat next to me, less because I smelled (probably), and more because sitting next to a foreigner can always be a little bit scary. Finally, the bus was too full to ignore me any longer and two very tall college boys got on. One gestured to his huskier friend to take the seat next to me but that friend insisted on standing. The first guy sat down in defeat. The seats were too small to avoid touching thighs even though he gripped the seat edge and sat rigidly straight on turns to avoid bumping shoulders. There was…

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    September 27, Language

    I felt a cold creeping up on me last Saturday which also happened to mark the midpoint of perhaps the most stressful two weeks in a long, long time. Immigration inconsistency (again), politics in my home country, personal relationships, identity, school exams all formed the least delicious ice cream sundae. The cold finally reared its head Friday and I decided to heed the old advice and just rest. No gym, no sightseeing, no guilt. By Sunday night, I felt replete with an energy I hadn’t had in weeks. Is this what it feels like to be well rested? I could feel this way every day?? My god. Friday afternoon in…

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    September 24, Re-center

    Because of (another) Christian cult, cases spiked a few weeks ago in Seoul and haven’t been completely eradicated.  I texted with C briefly and she told me they are now doing online interactive classes at the elementary school. “All the kids look sad and bored,” she said. I was inexplicably filled with that ghost of rage regarding English education and I had to take a step back to ask myself why. It’s no secret that I am not a fan of public school English education in Korea. A focus on reading comprehension is a detriment to the most fundamental use of language: communication. It feels in my experience that Korean…

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    Who’s that strange man?

    Whenever I see a mannequin in Korea, I experience the most cognitive dissonance. Or rather, just post-colonialism. Excluding small island nations, Korea is one of the most homogeneous countries in the world. The Koreans of today can be traced back to the Koreans from almost 5,000 years ago in nearly the same location on the peninsula. I know because I read it about it in a bus station museum somewhere in Gangwon province. And yet every time I see a mannequin, it’s white. Not only in color, but in very obvious Caucasian European features. It’s not only local brands or big-name shops. It’s also municipal branches like the police department…

  • 1.4 Spring 2020 (COVID Archives),  Thoughts & Drabbles

    Life 2020

    I opened the Gyeongsangnam website and was greeted with this: Well, there’s an answer! This, however, is still not in line with my original plan: take off a few months and go back to the USA. This guideline stipulates that I actually cannot leave the country between contracts if I want to work for the GOE this year. It’s time for you to participate in a fun game show: what shall I do with my life? First, let’s review the background information. School Calendars Korean schools start in spring and end in fall, March to January. Teachers can get contacts starting in either fall or spring semester. Gyeongsangnam is the…

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    For the Formerly Gifted

    You know what? Sometimes life is just hard. You can be thankful for being alive and still feel weighed heavily to the earth. If I can be honest with you, there has always been a piece of me that feels separate from both myself and others. It’s not a lonely piece per say but a piece that feels disconnected and maybe nihilistic. It’s been with me for a long long time. There was a short period in college where it disappeared and I felt guilty. What would tie me to the earth and keep me from floating away? People couldn’t be this carelessly happy all the time. Maybe it’s an…